Dear Blog,

Just watched the long-waited video "Best Friend" by Jason Chen.
It touched every corner of my heart.
That is exactly how I imagine the two of us all the time.
But I guess dreams will stay dreams.
A dedication to my Best Friend <3



Love,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

This whole week I've been having a tough time trying to sleep peacefully.
The whole mood from the moment I wake up to the time I sleep, I've been mentally, spiritually and physically exhausted..
And what's worst is that, lately, I realized that I'll never get over her.
She's too good for me.
But I guess I still need to finalize some things with her.
Although I know I'll never be able to get over her, I need to know that she'll be happier with someone else.
It's tough, but it's another sacrifice i'll have to know.
I wish she knew..
Anyway, she'll know everything soon.
Gotta continue the countdown.
Can't wait to see her tomorrow to talk to her.



This much I know is true.. That God blessed the broken road that lead me straight to you
Valentine

Dear Blog,

I realized that I'm afraid of so many things..
And these fears prevent me from doing the right thing most of the time..
Firstly, I'm afraid to lose my best friends, afraid to be alone, afraid to have a horrible future both financially and socially, afraid of falling sick, afraid of having enemies, afraid of doing so much shit that I fear may screw up my life.

To Sam:
You asked me why I wasn't angry at you the other night, well, it's simple.
I don't want to do anything that could risk losing you.
That's also the reason why I hesitate to complaining a lot of shit to you.
It's not that I don't trust you, but it's just that I don't wanna say anything that could make you hate me :X

Still thinking about a lot of things..
Quite sad. But nevertheless, shan't be brought down by the negativity.


-Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

I'm starting to despise Sundays..
Or maybe I just need to go out..
But I wish she was free to go out as well.

Anyway, today spent the whole day at home and it was freaking boring.
Like literally boring as hell.
Other than watching The Bing Bang Theory and The Change Up,
I still hate staying at home all day..
Even tried to force myself to sleep but then my parents decided to hae an early dinner at 6pm!?
So only managed to catch like 15 mins of shut-eye?
And during those short minutes, my mind was a mess again :X
Thought about me and relationships.

I realized that my dream relationship would be to befriend a girl, get to know her and just be her friend for quite a while and if everything falls into place, fall in love with her and try my best to make her fall in love with me too. Yes, that does mean that I do not believe in 'Love at first sight' and it does mean that I will be willing to do anything to prove to her that I'm the one for her. You were my dream. And still are <3

And to think, how pathetic am I huh..?
Anyway, yea.. That'll probably be the key factor that will keep me up all night tonight.

Well, better slap some sense into me again. My days are numbered and ain't got much time left. Better make good use of it..



-Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

The past few days were quite good.
Especially on Wednesday when i had my Theatre CDS lol.
Everyone there was quite friendly.
Actually made one friend immediately, Ethan.
And for the first time, I actually felt quite comfortable being myself and just acting wildly.
And the lecturer was the same person as when I took it last year.
Anywho, overall, it was fun (:
Can't wait for next week lol.

Today was great!
Spent a short day in school and then watched a movie after school.
Then, went to visit my awesome bestie whom I missed the whole week!
Yea, she didn't know I was coming so I was hoping to see a shocked expression on her face xD
But oh wells, at least I managed to accompany her for a while (:
Can't wait to see her again tomorrow lol!
Speaking of which, I shall go print scores because tomorrow I will need to be at church by 4pm as there's no Cat Class.

Yea, still missing her smile ):





-Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

The past few days have been at ease, at least for my mind (:
Went to play Soccer with the choir members and some other church people on Sunday at Belestier.
It was rather hot btw!
So I had a slight sunburn and other than that, it actually turned out to be more fun than I thought.
Had quite a nice chat with Joshua Bangar in between games and Shaun Lum in the cab on the way home.

Yesterday, spent technically the whole day out at the Dhoby Ghaut area eating lunch, LAN and dinner with Sean, Kenneth, Dan and KahKit.
Got home quite late and super tired :X

Then this morning I woke up at 9?!?!
Don't ask why so early :X
Went to school at 11:40 to meet the guys for lunch.
We decided to eat in ITAS and for some reason, all our food sucked :X
I blame the new semester xD
Then after school, I went to town to purchase something for Project SASYZ :P
God knows what that stands for ^^
Anyway, I'm tired and gotta wake up early tmr.
And my bestie is sleeping already. Haha!





Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine