I just need a place to scream out everything.
Keeping it all in for all these years isn't helping.
The feeling is back and it keeps worsening day after day.
Can't even sleep properly because of it.
And I hate being independent..

Dear Blog,

It has finally begun!
Yes, the new Poly semester, Year 3.2!!
Yesterday was the first day of school for me because I have no school on Monday's!!
Now how lucky is that?!
Yea, but I still don't really know what to do on Monday's.

Anywho, for some Unkown reason, I was quite hyper yesterday during the first lesson of CCom.
Pretty sure I didn't take that much sugar in the morning lol.
And was shocked to see so many familiar faces in the same tutorial group.
And apparently, there's a darn test next week already!! Sianzz..
But the lecture after that was suuuuuuuper boring as it was taught by none other than Vincent Wong :X
Just hope I can pay attention during the lecture tomorrow as well :X

Oh and today, I was so bored at home that I went cycling to Pasir Ris Park lol. Thankfully, it didn't rain on the way there.
It only started to rain again the second I got home.
The weather has been very fickle today.. Rains and stops and rains again..
Giving me a headache man :X

On a side note, the past few mornings I've been waking up happy thanks to a certain someone haha.





To my bestie: Talking to you makes my day (:



Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Location:Limau Grove,,Singapore

God Gave Me You

[Blake Shelton - Verse 1]
I’ve been a walking heartache
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be

But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm goes through
And I need you

[Chorus]
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

[Blake Shelton - Verse 2]
There’s more here than what were seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
Ill be the flattered fool
And I need you


[Chorus]
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

[Bridge]
On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo

[Chorus - Outro]
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you
Gave me you

Dear Blog,

Today was hectic.. And I mean hectic..
Woke up this morning feeling tired and couldn't go back to sleep..
Then had to go out after lunch to visit my Grand-Aunt who's still in a coma..
Then was late for choir practice again...
Starting to feel very guilty for not being there on time for practice but still getting to sit on the normal seats in the loft :X

Well, after mass, went to Scape with Sam and we were having a heavy discussion about where we were going to eat the whole time we were there hahaha!
Then we ended up eating in Toa Payoh and I found out that the basement kopitiam has horrible char siew rice :X

Then went home and.... All hell broke loose?
Yea... You could say that.
Not gonna say any details here, but I'm glad that my bestie and I know the truth about each other and I honestly feel like we just got even closer! (:
If that wasn't possible hahah!

And to make it clear, yes, this is for you my BFFL!<3





Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

Today, I've had the last day for me to revise the FTT booklet before the test at 8pm.
And honestly, I was amazed with the results.
45/50!! Yes! That freaking means I just passed it on the dot!! Haha!
Was so happy luh, at least I don't have to re-do the stupid test.
The test had so many questions about clutches and gears..
Which is stupid because I'm only going to learn auto..

Anywho, I'm happy with the results and I can't wait to book my first practical lesson.
Just hope the instructor speaks English and is friendly :X
Well, that's all for today.
A lot on my mind really.
But I'll wait to talk about that soon (:








Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

Today was a tiring day..
Like literally tiring and exhausting!!
Spent the whole day reading through the stupid FTT questions booklet.
600 questions to read through..
I was so shocked and amazed when I finally finished man...
Gonna go through it again tmr before I leave for the test..

Well, other than my boring day studying for my FTT, I woke up this morning to a text and I never knew a simple two-word text could put a smile on my face the first thing in the morning, haha!

Later in the late afternoon, my.... Grand Uncle(?!) came over to my house.
Honestly, I feel bad because I don't even know who he is!
But he seems to be family :X
Never mind, I shall ask my parents tomorrow.
He's like sleeping on the couch-bed downstairs so I'm afraid to go down to get a drink, cause I might wake him suddenly :X

Oh and my Timetable is finally out!!
And I've got No classes on Monday's!!
Therefore, constant 3-day weekend for the next semester!! Woot!
Plus, next week, I've only got school for 3 days thanks to the holiday on Wednesday!
Right now, I'm just so addicted to a certain song that only my bestie knows.
And I found out that home sharing doesn't work with the current iTunes version..
Wells, off to bed soon (:





Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

Today was another boring day spent at home.
But instead of just stoning and playing games, I actually did some 'studying'?
Had to read through the whole FTT booklet that Sylvia lent me.
Took me almost the whole day cause I had to read through it twice.
And I think that it's the very old version? Because it doesn't say anything about Automatic cars. Only Manual ones.. And i'm pretty sure that in Auto cars, there's no clutch. But I guess I still have to learn for the sake of knowing. Heh..
Oh wells, just hope I can pass the test on my first try this time :X
And must set a reminder on my calendar for this Friday.

Wells, these two will be my best friends for the next two days..


Well, that's a new record too! I just blogged 3 times in a day lol!




Signing off from my iPad,
Valentine

Dear Blog,

Okay, so this is my first blog using my iPad and I hope it comes out as good as I hope it can! Haha! This is just a test btw.


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

Dear Blog,

Okay, so last night I had a mental explosion just as I was about to sleep..
Justtttt great =/
Just as I was about to doze off, I remembered that I had my FTT this Friday.
Then, I checked the date of my E-Trial and realized that it was actually last night and that I had missed it already.. So... No E-Trial for me and I'll have to read through both of my books for the next 3 days.
And somehow because of that, I couldn't sleep for 2 hours! Omg =/
So I just tried my best to lie in silence and try to force myself to sleep..
That was one hell of a sleepless night man..
Feel so exhausted right now =/
And the whole night, there were countless songs running through my head.
Like as if, I was dreaming consciously.

Wells, I found myself fully awake with daylight shining through my windows at about 8a.m.
And now I'm gonna start mugging through the FTT booklets!
And I still have more coding to do...
I hate coding with a new language..
No one to teach me, something I hate and so many errors...
Oh God :X I need a proper Holiday =/


- The reason you catch me staring at you constantly is because I can't help but see the beauty in you. And believe me.. it's Beautiful (:


-Peace!

Dear Blog,

These past few days have been tooooooooooo relaxed.
Doing nothing feels good but it feels like the lack of action is getting to my tummy.
On Saturday, had cat class with just Ariel and I cause Nico and Edward weren't free.
We went with my plan of a simple activity and little sharing.
The theme was 'Choices' and my original plan was actually to share my 'choices' that brought me to Risen Christ in the first place.
Yes, that meant sharing about how a simple crush could lead me to making so many great friends and knowing so many inspirational people..
However, that plan was scrapped when we ran out of time! :X
Soooo I'll save that story for another time. Haha.

Well, today was another great day (:
Went to Ngee Ann Poly today to accompany Sam because she had nothing to do from 7+ all the way to 1pm.
So, caught a ride down with my Dad who had to go to SP to teach.
But it ended up being Sam accompanying me for brunch. Haha.
We had to find so many things to do to waste time and make time go faster and personally, I had fun.
Despite being whacked and kicked :P
Then even saw Noel when Sam was giving her her books.
Personally, I feel rather happy every time I see any of Sam's family.
Just hope I can change Marie's view of me one day xD

Annnnnnddd..... After Sam left for her first class of the semester, I left for Dover MRT and then Home!
But yet again, my plans sidetracked and I stopped off at H&M to look around!
Saw a nice jacket, but I need more shirts and I already have my $500 jacket on it's way here!! Can't wait!!
Soooo the only thing I bought was a simple and smooth-textured blue Polo-T.
That's all interesting things that happened so far.


I will never give up on you <3



That's all for now.
-Peace!

Dear Blog,

My days are being numbered by an unknown cause.
But I won't let that stop me from having fun.
But now a days, the weather is too good to sleep =/
And I have to wake up early tomorrow for a meeting.
I hope it doesn't rain!
If it does, I'll totally sleep during the meeting man..
Thanks to the weather and lack of people, the lab has been even colder than usual.
And that's really REALLY cold.. Feel like I need to bring a blanket.

Apart from school, today felt rather boring... As in..
I really didn't do much other than play Warcraft as usual.
And a bit of coding..
And a bit of recording and mixing.
But yea, just can't get a certain someone off my mind.
I shan't write anything here about her, because I'm going to just wait for her bday to pass her a letter.
Just hope she likes it lol.
Here's to the future!


But knowing you and seeing your smile will always make everything worth it (:



Off to early bed.
-Peace!

Dear Bestie,

I know I've done wrong in making you think that I don't trust or need you.
But in actual fact, I do need you and trust you with everything I have..
We've been through a lot in our friendship and I'm really happy at how far we've come. Despite our arguments and fights, we still stayed Best Friends and overcame any obstacle that came between our friendship.
We've also had our happy moments. Like when we would stand behind people we know who liked each other and put our hands together to make a heart with them inside.
Yea, really good times. It's the simple things you do that make me like you more and more each day. Recently, our friendship has gotten even stronger and I really felt that we got closer with each passing moment.

Please know that I will never want to hurt you in any way.
And that I will always trust you no matter what.
I just hope you find the heart to forgive me.
You mean a lot to me and I don't want to lose you.

Love,
Your Best Friend For Life

Dear Blog,

Today was a day of helping me realize so many things.
1) I'm not ready for the future.
2) I don't feel confident in being strict with the class.
3) I really don't like a lot of things..
4) She and I will never be together because of the multitude of differences.
5) I still need someone who will listen to EVERYthing I have to say, and not just what that person wants to hear.
6) My family is broken, but we're trying..
7) I'm still trying so hard to be the perfect person.

Yeaaaa, that's about all I've thought about today.
Other than that, I still can't freaking wait for my Jacket to arrive!!! Although I might have chosen the wrong colour =/
Anywho, it's kinda too late to regret! So I shall live with my choices! :D
And besides, it still doesn't look TOO bad =/

Nope, not bad at all! (:

Well, not really a long post.
Just felt like posting..

P.S. To Anonymous: Don't bother changing your personality just for me, you know as well as I do, that you'll always be the same old you who won't listen and only cares about yourself. Yes, I'm slowly getting tired of caring so much for you if you don't even bother about what I have to say. Just sayin..



Wells, off to bathe and sleep!
-Peace!

Dear Blog,

Today was a great day!
My awesome bestfriend came over to my house after God-knows how long =/
We kinda spent the whole day looking for songs for her to sing.
Also, we were trying to get her to sing with her diaphragm.
I'm honestly glad to say that she's making progress! lol
Oh and thanks to her, she sprayed my room with her perfume
and now it smells of her! =/

After all the crazy singing, left for Suntec for dinner.
Had Pepper Lunch and for the first time, I ordered my dish with Cheese!
Ohhhh so nice.
But then, Sam being the genius she is, poured so much sauce into hers! :X
HELLO! I know you're reading this! LOL!!
Yeppp, after that, just walked around to kill time and then headed home!

Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
Still need to prepare for Catechism =/
Honestly, I feel rather irresponsible for the lack of effort I'm putting into preparing for Catechism.. =/ Gah.. Hate the need to be perfect..

P.S. From the crazy singing, I found a new favourite cover!



Anywho, off to bed for now!
-Peace!

Dear Blog,

Today was a good day.
Managed to finish up quite a bit of my Project in the morning.
Before leaving for LAN in the afternoon.
While LAN-ing, Sam called and she actually asked me out.
Was soooooooo tempted to leave LAN to meet her luh..
But didn't want to feel like a bastard and leave my friends there.
Sorry Sam! :X

After LAN, went to watch "Don't Know How She Does It".
It was quite a good movie actually, another movie I can partially relate to and actually get something out of it as well.
It helped me realized that I rarely plan my life.
Perhaps, about time I started. =/

Anywho, back home and STILL waiting for the tracking ID on my Letterman Jacket..
Can't wait for it to arrive man..



Well, off to sleep..
-Ciao!

Dear blog,

Just broke up with Jolyne yesterday.. on our 1st Month together..
I honestly don't know what to feel right now..
She said she trusted me at the start..
But looks like in the end, that trust didn't seem true.
If only she didn't make me choose.

Well, nothing else to do but to move on since she doesn't want to talk..
I think I'll just stop hanging out with that whole clique.
Somehow, they just seem to bring bad luck.

Right now, trying to solve those damn crashing errors in my Project
and waiting for the darn iPhone 5 announcement to be released!
Can't wait to see it!

And yes, I've decided to start blogging and re-open my formspring, just for the heck of it! (:



Off to continue coding!
Peace Out!