Dear Blog,

Today was another boring day at school.
No offence, but nothing interesting really happened.
Had an odd lunch today actually!
Asked KahKit to order whatever he could think off that wasn't
so spicy/hot.
Going to keep with this kinda random-diet!

Anyways, had another random mental breakdown on Saturday night.
Wells, I'd like to call it a breakdown cause my mind starts thinking too much.
The thing is, I love her, too much.
Only my bff knows.. And I'm starting to lose hope in the future we COULD have.
Because I know for a fact that she will never put me first.
I hate to say it, but I have to admit that I stupidly chased away the only
person who was truly dedicated in a relationship..
Now, it's like, once they find one flaw in me, they forget all the good things..
I'm not desperate to be in a relationship.
I'm desperate for a meaning..
Even in school, I'm feeling nothing!
No interest in what I'm doing.
No one even knows what I truly want in life and I guess I'm going to
die with all my secrets with me.

Honestly, I'm still looking for that one person who is willing to pry into my privacy to find out how I am each week. Or at least bother to pester me about the secrets I want to tell them but can't. I need someone who bothers.
It's hard to stay mental with all these problems still running around in my head.
It's hard to concentrate.
And it's hard to find someone to talk to.
When I'm silent, it means that I'm thinking about something.
A distraction is what I need.



Wells.. That's enough ranting for now.
Off to distract myself!
Peace Out!